A Mother’s Pain
“Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you.”
1 Peter 5:7 (NRSV)
It is impossible to describe to anyone what it is like to lose a child. Nobody knows how painful it was for me when I lost my son. As a parent you expect to leave your child behind when you die, not the other way around. However, we all know that life does not always work out how we hope or plan. We don’t know what is next in line for any of us.
After the death of my son I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sat in my room and cried. In those times of utter despair I hoped things were different, that I could hold or speak with him one more time. At other times I struggled holding back the tears. In those moments I wrestled with my thoughts asking ‘Why him and not me?’
Through the grief and later reflection I gained some insights. One thought was in life the strongest people are the ones who love beyond all faults. The most powerful people are those who pray and cry behind closed doors fighting the battles that nobody else may know about. Lastly, although our loved one is gone we keep going for the ones we love who are still with us. It is by going through the valley of the shadow of death that we can better appreciate the light.
1 Peter 5:7 meant a lot to me because through it God was telling me to give all my troubles to him and he will take care of me. In losing my son it felt like my life was taken away from me and it still feels like there’s a big hole left in my heart. Yet, I trust in God and His word filled with promises keeps me going day after day knowing He will never leave me or forsake me. Also, I have the confident hope that I will see my son again one day.
Lord, I bring to you my pain and you know my situation, you know many times in my life I have struggled and needed you to get me through. Thank you for always bringing comfort to my heart, and strength to carry on. Please watch over my family and friends, and help them through their difficult time.
Study by Ruby Millard
About the Author:
Ruby Millard attends the Birmingham Congregation of the Worldwide Church of God UK.
Worldwide Church of God Birmingham
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